Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Worse and worse..

That's how things are now.

Last night was bad. He started snipping at everyone. I asked him why he doesn't leave. He wouldn't answer. He said he's determined to ruin my life like I ruined his. Because it's all my fault. Only he believes that one.

I might not have a computer. He claims he's taking mine (since it's under his name, not that he pays for it) on the 1st. We're hoping that means that he's leaving then. I warned my mother that if he even seems like he's going to hurt anyone, I'll have him thrown in jail so fast that he'll have whiplash. Then I'll slap a restraining order on him. He wants to be vicious? I can be even more so.

I've taken to staying out of the house, during the day, while he's at home. I don't want to have to have him arrested-- I worry about how traumatic that will be for the kids-- but will if I have to. If he takes the computer, I'll try to update from the library however sporadically I can.

I'm praying things get better soon. I haven't slept well. The kids aren't sleeping well either. Keeping my fingers crossed.

6 Things You Say:

At 10:20 PM, Blogger the Barefoot mama said...

Take care of yourself and your kids - top priority. Also let me know if he does take the computer because we're kind of a geeky family in my household so I have enough computer parts around here to set you up a decent one with internet connection. May not be all shiny and new, but it will work until you can get something better. LoL and all I ask is that you cover shipping to get it there if you need it. I know it's a pain to head to the library when all you want to do is sit and rant for a little bit.

Keep us posted...

 
At 11:43 PM, Blogger Fej said...

Ouch. I hope that this situation works itself out someway that doesn't require outside help, ie. the police. I wish you the best.

 
At 5:29 AM, Blogger Michelle said...

you and your kids are in my prayers R
take care x

 
At 2:24 PM, Blogger Vivian to Some said...

Hang in there R.

 
At 2:38 PM, Blogger Beth said...

Been through that myself. I got me and my son out, but have been living "underground" for the last 2 years.

Nevertheless....

It DOES get better. Take care of the kids and yourself. Keep doing what you're doing until you're out.

 
At 2:48 PM, Blogger Erratic Prophet said...

Edana- You're amazing. Thanks so much for the offer. Luckily, while scrounging around yesterday, I found the old, clunky computers. Should he take this one, I'm sure I can get those back up and running. Thank you so much!

fej- Thanks. I'm hoping, by the way things went last night, that we've seen the worst and he'll be gone soon.

Michelle- Thank you. It's appreciated.

Viv- No worries there! I'm like a yankee Scarlett O'Hara-- but without the curtain dress.

Beth- Thanks. I've been keeping myself scarce while he's around during the day. At night, it's all of us vs. just one of him, so he stays scarce. I feel for the kids. They went from a neglectful father and a messy divorce to a spiteful grandfather and another possible messy divorce. They're brave and very strong lil buggers. They don't let him get them down. I'm very proud of them.

 

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